Right now you fourteen, feeling lost. If I could share with you all I know now, know this:
School isn't as bad as you think. Sure it's not an easy ride but you'd give anything to be back a school when your 20, on your last day you will cry and you will be sad. That summer will be a weird one you won't remember much but what you do remember is that the London 2012 Olympics will captivate you, your spend all summer, with one person and your love it. Then they'll lose there selves and start making mistakes, they'll try to make you to join them, like stealing from shops and on that day they ask you to get on the train to go to the shop with them please don't go, your be thankful. Then you won't speak to them for about four years but when you do again years later nothing will have changed, their still be like your best friend, only they'd of grown up and found the right path in the end... Almost. That same summer be prepared to eat a lot of chicken, I mean a lot.
The following summer (2013) will be the hardest, darkest, scariest time your going to face. It'll kill you... Almost. Your make a new friend who will do everything they can to save you, they'll help you, you won't see it at first but in the end your be thankful for it. Don't be bitter and don't hate then because your regret it, just be gracious and let them leave when they do because without them I wouldn't be here writing you this letter. Your spend the summer abroad with family, your disconnect from everyone and everything; that'll be the best thing you could ever do, It'll give you the chance to free yourself and find yourself.
The winter of the same year your get a call from an unknown number... Answer it. If you do anything please answer it, that will be the start of three months of therapy. It'll open your eyes, your mind and your heart, your learn new things about yourself and the people around you. It won't be easy but I promise you it'll be worth it, my advice for therapy, be open, honest, don't hold back commit whole heartedly... completely.
March 2013, your take a leap and start a blog. Don't be scared of what anyone else is going to think, don't let what anyone else thinks of you hold you back from doing what you enjoy. Take every opportunity because you don't know if your get another. When it comes to love, don't hold your breath. Your be the only single one in your group for about, forever, but don't stress about it. Instead take the time to enjoy life and be young (because yes as much as you think you are, your not quiet an adult just yet) do things you've never done before, grown as a person, don't go looking for love let love find you.
Autumn 2014 your pack your life up into boxes and move half way across the country to start the next chapter of your life. University, it wont be an easy ride, your struggle, cry (a lot), laugh, stumble out of clubs at 2 o'clock in the morning and lay in your own sick; but don't worry your love every second of it. Your learn so much regards to your degree, your also learn so much about the different people from all walks of life and your learn so much about yourself. Your finally feel like an adult, your freak out a little bit but your figure it out, your still have no idea what you want to do with your life and your change your mind every month but don't worry about it to much, everyone will tell you its normal.
Sat here now October 2016, I look back at fourteen year old me with a heavy heart. I don't regret anything but if I knew what I knew now I'd do so many things differently, of course I'd do things differently. The roads a long, bump ride but your learn so much and experience so many things.
Be brave, open your heart, speak out and be open minded.
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