Well I'm Carrie Feagan, 18 from a small town in Essex, England; my love for fashion started at a young age like any young girl I'd dress up in clothes from my mums wardrobe and steal her make-up- but the day that I really feel in love with fashion is a day I'll never forget.
My Nan had always been a big influence in my life, I like to think that she helped raise me- after my parents got divorced, I'd often stay the night at my grandparents house throughout the week when my mum worked the night sift at work and as my dad was a scaffolder it meant he had an early start in the mornings and me staying there wasn't convenient.
But the one day when my life would change forever- whether I knew or realized at the time or not, looking back I now know that that was in fact the day my life changed forever, you see my nan had this room- she called it the 'Dressing Room'; I walked into the dressing room one day and stood in the doorway looking in and it was on this particular day that I chose to really take in everything in that room, the masses of clothes that where hung on one wall, the boxes on shelves above the clothes that contained hats, bag and probably the odd shoe here and there- the clothes neatly folded into draws, the dressing table that contained masses of beauty products "something for everything, each do something different to keep you looking young" my nan would often tell me when I questioned her why she had so many pots of the same white cream. So on this day standing there really taking it all in, I made a decisions that I one day wanted to own a room just like this one- I'd always thought that my Nan looked amazing in whatever she wore and I wanted to be like that one day.
Only now roughly 10 years later do I realise how much of an impact that day had on my life. In February of last year it got to the time in my life where I had to make a decision that would change and impact my life forever, I had to decide what I was going to do once I'd finished my A-Levels, was I going to go to University or get a job? Only there was one problem I didn't know what I'd study if I was to go to uni and I didn't know what I wanted to do if I was to get a job- so I found myself stuck with a massive decision to make and not only was it a massive thing to do it was scary too.
I'd like anyone changed my mind constantly on what I wanted to do with my life, but a few years prior to this whilst in high school, I had thought about being a fashion designer- only I hadn't actually taken the right subjects to allow me to do that. So now with this massive, scary decision to make I thought back to this time, this was the one thing that had been stuck at the back of my mind for years, so I did some research into other areas within the fashion industry that could appeal to me- that's where I stumbled across a course 'Writing Fashion and Culture' a course that I took a liking to, only I didn't know if I was going to enjoy it because I didn't have any experience and I'd never actually wrote anything to do with fashion? On top of that I didn't know if i'd actually be a good writer- although I enjoyed writing it doesn't always mean your good at it and seeing as I was re-taking my English exam as I hadn't passed in year 11, I was left extremely confused.
But it wasn't until I remembered someone that had not only boosted my confidence but taught me a lot of what I know now, the one teacher who when I left high school had impacted my life in a way that I now am incredibly grateful for and who probably doesn't even realise the impact she left on me. My English teacher from year 11, in a year she took me from a very bad G grade to five marks of a C- she helped me in all areas I was struggling in and who was the only person to believe in me when I truthfully had given up on myself, she taught me that in life there will be things that you struggle at but it doesn't mean your not good at them. She boosted my confidence and made me realise that the thing i'd been struggling with for years was something that I became to love and enjoy- it was the only lesson that I'd look forward to. Without her I don't know where I'd been now, she inspired me and even now continues to influence me, when I find something hard I think back to the many lessons with her and remember that not everything's easy but if you really want something work hard for it and your get it in the end.
So with that in mind I decided to combine the two things that left a huge impact on my life, fashion and writing- Now knowing what it was I wanted to do and that I could maybe make it on to the course that I'd been left thinking about for a while, I decided that University was what I was going to do after my A-Levels. It was all good that I'd made that decision but it didn't mean I had any experience in it, so I did the one thing I had thought about for a while I decided to write a blog- a scary concept I'll be honest, the fact that someone might actually find it and read it terrified me but I didn't think about that because I wasn't going to write it for anyone but myself; this blog was for me, for me to see if it could be something I could do for the rest of my life - and then CarriesClosetxo was born.
As the weeks went on I started to realise that not only was I enjoying it but so were a lot of other people from other countries, the page views started to go up and I began realise that I no longer was doing this for myself that I was doing this for all of you. I didn't know why I was so worried about someone finding it or someone that I knew finding because I loved what I was doing and it seemed like so did it everyone else, I didn't care if someone I knew found it- it suddenly didn't bother me, I was too happy to even think about it.
Now a year and 5 months later and I've just reached over 3,ooo page views. I can't believe that something I started just for myself has received such an amazing response not just buy people I know but by so many people I don't, in countries I couldn't imagine, from all corners of the world; now I know that this thing I'm doing is absolutely what I want to do for the rest of my life, I can't imagine myself doing anything else.
So who is CarriesClosetxo? Who am i? Well I'm a successful international blogger (got to blow your own trumpet sometimes) that will continue to blog for the rest of my life, only along the way I'll make it my job and hopefully one day I'll influence or inspire some of you. Just know that at some point in your life your remember a day, a day that you might not know now will change your life and when you find that day, don't let go of it, remember exactly how you felt and cherish it forever- because it's a day that will influence the person your going to be.
So that's who CarriesClosetxo is but who is Carrie Feagan, well that's a long story that one day I'll share with you but for now this is exactly who online blogger Carrie is.
Always remember that not everything's easy but if you really want something work hard for it and your get it in the end.
Lots of Love
CarriesCloset xo
P.S I just wanted to say a massive THANK YOU to all of you for continuing to support me and my blog, without any of you I wouldn't be able to do this. Reaching 3,000 page views is such an overwhelming feeling know that over 3,000 people like what I write and I hope that one day I'll be able to meet you and thank you in person for all that you've done for me without you I wouldn't be here- I love you and thank you again!
xxx.
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